Be who God meant for you to be!

Sometimes there are people that come into our life that feel they have the right to form you into what they think you, as a believer, should be, they may be well meaning but mislead. They can cause a lot of pain and harm within a person which can take a lot to straighten out.

I had some people like that in my life once and it has taken me a long time, many years to overcome what they tried to do. Today, as I was journaling, they came to mind and I decided to write to them about what they did. I thought I would share it with you:

“It was wrong of you to try to make me be someone
” You thought I should be”

instead of letting me be

“Who God made me to be!”

He made me to be me – not someone else or someone’s ‘Mini Me!” He made me to be a particularly special example of who He is – the creative God – and creative people are just as spiritual as anyone else – we just ‘illustrate’ God in ways some other people weren’t created to. We still learn, pray, worship, preach, teach, serve, minister, share, witness to others, and are used by the Holy Spirit, just like you do.
You shouldn’t have judged me because you didn’t understand me, you shouldn’t have tried to change me because YOU thought there was something wrong with me! There was nothing wrong with me, I was just as much as a spiritual person as you, I just ‘had’ a different calling than you, different talents…

Each of us has God’s DNA in us, each one’s DNA is different so each of us displays God with a different sparkle.”

I forgive you.

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WIP: Washes White as Snow

There is a story behind it and many symbols in the picture

When I am totally finished the picture I will add the finished painting and
I will then tell the story and tell all the symbols. God will often inspire me to create something and then the symbols emerge a little at a time.

So bear with me!

My normal medium is colored pencil so needless to say I started this painting as I would one of my colored pencil pictures: making patterns and tracing them on the canvas.

As you see I have traced them onto the canvas.

Beginning of the painting process.

Adding the heart, the cross, and the wings.

Painting in the wings.

Adding the clouds.

Adding some color, ornamentals, small snowflakes,and beginnngs of larger snowflakes.

Adding the larger snowflakes and the leaves of peace.

Adding Scripture

Here is the story behind this picture: A few Sundays ago I was on the platform helping to lead song service when suddenly my husband appeared and whispered in my ear “It’s snowing out.” Now anyone who knows me knows that I LOVE to see snow falling, unfortunately I couldn’t see it at that time. Now under normal circumstances he would never do such a thing but this was special…. the interesting thing was: we were singing ” Oh the Blood of Jesus,” and the words we were singing was “it Washes White as Snow.” As soon as song service finished I hurried over to a window and saw that it was still snowing! Shortly after I sat down it stopped. And this is the picture that popped in my head while watching the snow falling.

Here are the symbols:

It is a Christmas ornament of the gift from God that starts with “The Christmas Story of Jesus Birth,” the Heart stands for the Father and His love for us, the Cross stands for Jesus, the Wings stands for the Holy Spirit, the twigs in the wings are symbols of peace and promise (like the dove that brought the twig back to Noah in the Ark when the earth was drying up), the wings have the rainbow in them which stands for the promises of God, the snow stands for the fact that through the shedding of Jesus Christ’s blood we are “Washed as White as Snow.”

There are two scriptures written on the bottom of the picture which I will type out here:

Is 1:18 (Amp)

“Come now, and let us reason together,”
Says the Lord.
“There was a legend among the rabbis that on the Day of Atonement a scarlet woolen thread was tied to the door of the temple, and when the scapegoat reached the wilderness (Lev 16:10), if the sins of Israel were forgiven the thread would miraculously turn white.Though your sins are like scarlet,
They shall be as white as snow;
Though they are red like crimson,
They shall be like wool.

Ps 51:7 (HCSB)

Purify me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

Especially at this time we all need to fall to our knees and pray for forgiveness and for our leaders!

Just had a God thing happen!

As I was pulling up to my house after “paying my taxes at the post office” I said to myself: Mersea you go inside, pick up your guitar and play “Good Good Father” then attempt to paint a picture.” (I’ve had a dry spell in which I haven’t been able to draw or paint.)

All of a sudden “Good Good Father” came on the radio and I sat in front of my house and cried. So beautiful! He knows what we need before we speak it!

This isn’t the version played on the radio but this is my favorite version!

Here are some pictures of the picture I am starting paint…. now I know how a lot of people paint but my medium is usually color pencil and the picture I have in my mind is detailed so I am doing my drawing geeky thing!

Here is a skeleton sketch on the matt:

Hardship Creativity

This weekend I am preparing for a medical ‘proceedure’ to be had on Monday.  The meds I am taking are disrupting my system!  The good thing about a hardship is that it sometimes  causes me to be creative which is exactly what happened today. A pretty little angel came to my mind and I sat down, picked up a pencil, and began to draw. She doesn’t have a name yet but I am sure she will whisper it to me when the time is right.

Do realize even my sketches are signed and copywritten therefore if anyone uses my art without written permission, they will be procescuted to the full extent of the law.

 

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Sketch from a picture I found online.

After all that I had to do: pool workout, getting some groceries, etc, I came home and did a search for a face to use for sketching. I like to find a photo that I like and then make a sketch with no intention of making the sketch actually look like the person, the purpose is to sketch and get use to the different postitions of the face or the postions. Below is a sketch I did late yesterday afternoon. Hope you like it!

Oh, the paper is actually an off white color but the sky reflected blue on it. 😀

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All sketches are copywritten and may not be used without written permission. If used you will be prosecuted.

Taking a view of my life.

I’ve just been watching “The Walton’s” (my absolutely favorite show of all times!) and “Little House on the Prairie” and have realized I don’t think I would have made a very good Pioneer woman like Caroline in “Little House” but I’ve always identified with Olivia on “The Walton’s” and feel like I lived my life similiarly to hers. (I watched one episode yesterday where she took a painting class…. I just finished taking an Art Class – something I haven’t done in decades literally!!!

I remember when I was growing up I loved the Victorian Era and even the Pioneer Era. I’ve always loved long dresses and long curly hair, making everything by hand, decorating my house with home made items…. and in some ways I lived that kind of life.

When I graduated high school I had absolutely no direction in my life. I loved drawing and writing and making things but had no idea how I could make money from my interests. I worked but wasn’t making any money to speak of. I went to college some but still didn’t know what I wanted to do and ended up dropping out. I eventually got married and had two sons. We were not financially stable and so I actually ended up making most everything that I decorated our house with: quilts, curtains, wooden country decorative items, stools, shaker clock, pillows, crocheted afghans, crocheted lamp shades, crocheted lace collars, and all kinds of things. It was actually very satisfying. There were some times that I was able to sell some of the things I made by hand and that felt great! And there were times when I actually worked a job outside the house once the boys went to school. I worked at Rose’s Dept. Store as a clerk, worked at a Photography Studio fixing pictures, worked at a Florist and clerk at an open air florist in a Mall, and did sell country crafts at parties.

It was satisfying in many ways but there were things about it I didn’t like, all the things I didn’t like to do when I was growing up: housework, babysitting, couldn’t cook… were all the things I ended up doing when I grew up. And though my boys are grown and out on their own I still don’t like doing housework, cooking though I must admit I am pretty good at it now.

I ended up divorced and got remarried. I worked for the first five years of our marriage, lost my job, then got sick with Fibromyalgia. My husband, Burton, had always thought that I should do something with my art and so we printed up some cards and I went store to store selling my art as cards. I had my cards in lots of stores in my hometown and in some places in North Carolina plus was selling online. Had to stop because I had Breast Cancer and had to go through chemo and radiation and then recooperate.

I have been trying to figure out how to restart the business, my poor brain is killing me from all the thinking. Now I am beginning to formulate what I have to do. I am thinking of doing an online group funding to get the money to get the business started on and on the ground running! I’ll let you know when I get it started!

 

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